Hope is a beautiful thing – the more you notice it creeping into your heart and hold on to it’s faint glow, the more it returns and the warmer becomes. Maybe it’s a habit? Maybe it’s a state of mind? Maybe it is faith in goodness? Maybe it is all of these things.
Regardless, I have a lot of it right now.
It is very hard for me to see far into the future – nothing clear at least. The plans I project on myself feel blurry and abstract. My five-year-plan is very faintly sketched in light pencil marks that I just know I will erase.
But I am really good at short term plans, and I can see the next 4-5 months rather clearly, and they are full and beautiful.
From what I can see now, they are full of painting, shop updates, christmas craziness, a road-trip, writing, buying a new home (we hope and pray!), some more paintings, long flights with two little girls, a visit to France + elsewhere, a long flight back, and then…? I see nothing.
Only a beautiful blank slate that I know I will fill as we get a bit closer to it but, for now, is such a warm blurry glow.
I think it is a gracious thing that I can only see as much as I can handle at the moment. I have sufficient energy to plan and process what is on my plate now and anything outside of that feels just a little bit too big and overwhelming. Living in the “moment”, and trusting that good choices have brought me to this place, is so liberating and exciting. I hope you know just what I mean!
Over the next couple weeks I will be sharing several updates to let you know about the things are happening in my studio & shop and I hope you catch my passion in all of this.
It is a massive blessing that I am able to use my hands and imagination to help create a peaceful life for my little family and I do not take that for granted.
Thank you for cheering me on as I continue down this abstract path. I am doing my best to trust my heart and my head in it all.